I Fell in Love with A Vanilla Girl

I fell in love with a Vanilla girl…. 

She had no clue about our lifestyle other than that which she’d seen in movies(we all know which one).
I showed her the deepest,most darkest parts of my past AND SHE LOVES ME STILL…. She learned why I’ve always called MY “Babygirl” and what she means to me and what our lifestyle is really about…. And she chose to stay! 

She made me learn it’s ok to let someone in,that not all the world is out to hurt you….

She makes me see the world brand&new! 

We’ve said those 3 words that changes everything in one’s life… This vanilla girl I want to be my wife!!!

Those 3 words are ONLY FOR YOU:

*I LOVE YOU*

I fell in Love with A Vanilla Girl

RANDOM THOUGHT

I just had a very random thought…

Have you ever stopped to think/realize that in our “everyday”(vanilla) lives, we actually have S/m relationships without even being conscious about them????

Example: Boss/employee, between friends/co-workers, siblings/family members,even between lovers…..!

THINK ABOUT THIS FOR JUST A MOMENT…. 

Mind boggling!

ERGO: the D/s relationship is not actually a “taboo” as everybody seems to think…. it’s just labeled differently.

That is all.

J

WHO AM I?

​Who am I? Really speaking now….? 
Am I the guy that’s just a single dad looking for “the right one”?
Am I the guy you speak to when you need help starting your fitness/supplementation journey and when you need advice to reach your goals?
Am I the guy that’s “geeking out” about the latest Marvel Studios movie due for release or the next add on to the W.o.W(World of Warcraft) game series?
Am I the “Switch” that could be either your “Mr Grey” or “mister Steele”(sub) depending on the feelings between us or the roles taken? 

Am I the guy that always says good morning and asks how you are and that you speak to when you need a “friendly face”?

This is the question that I ask myself daily…. And the only question I cannot answer because in all honestly I AM ALL OF THEM,SOME OF THEM OR NONE OF THEM at any given time of the day…. 
I try my best to be true to myself by being all of them combined but in the end I’m left asking myself……
WHO 

AM

I

?

A Rather Depressing Thought

Maybe it’s because I’m not built “big” enough… Maybe I don’t stay in the “right” area or have the “right” type of job….
Maybe it’s because I work 6 days a week for a salary that’s target based.
I’m not big built like a superhero but I’m not overweight either,I work so hard to put food on my son’s table every night…. I love deeply and am loyal to a fault.
And yet love still eludes me…

MAYBE IT’S JUST ME….
MAYBE I AM JUST NOT “GOOD ENOUGH”….
MAYBE THIS IS THE LIFE I DESERVE.